Pandemic Stress and Suicidal Thoughts
James McNeil pt 1
If you have ever faced the thought of suicide, you know how difficult it can be to overcome. In fact, having gone down that path myself, those thoughts just “pop up” whenever something adverse happens. They are always there, just under the surface. Even years later. If you have a flat tire or something goes wrong with the car, and you think, “Great. I can’t afford this…” Then the thought pops into your mind, “Well, you could always kill yourself…”
I’m being serious. Those thoughts are always there.
And for our military veterans and for our police officers and other first responders, those thoughts are real. Every one of us, I’m both prior military and law enforcement, every one of us knows more than one person who has decided to make a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
My guest today, James McNeil, is a two time attempted suicide survivor. He has written a book that details the obstacles he faced – and overcame – on his journey to eliminate suicidal thoughts from his life. In this book he shares how you can do the same.
The book is titled, “Finding Your Personal Mission,” and here to talk about his book is the author, James McNeil. James, thank you for joining us on the program today.
First question, other than that brief introduction, tell us in your words, “Who is James McNeil?”
US Army Veteran. When were you in and what did you do?
Your book starts by talking about the “identity crisis” our military veterans have when leaving service. I can attest to that, 100%. I was in a leadership position. I was looked up to by everyone. I was respected even by those whom did not appreciate my enlisted background (I was a commissioned officer at that time). I could plan and execute battle orders, etc. Then, one day, I no longer had to go to work. I no longer had to put on a uniform.
I also had nobody who cared (other than my family). Life was hard.
And about two and half years of struggling financially after I left service, I had reached the point that you talk about in your book. My date was January 25, 1992 at 1135pm ET. A day I will never forget. I made “the decision” that night. The ONLY reason I did not do it, I wanted to tell my kids how much I loved them. In my mind, I was doing it for them. So my wife could pay off the bills, the house and have enough left to live on. That was my decision. My plan was to call them in the morning before they left for school…and then that would be it.
All I can say is, “BUT GOD!” He invaded my life 5 minutes later and my entire plan went out the window and I was on the phone telling my wife I was on my way home. I lived in Georgia at the time trying to sell insurance and my family as in Louisiana.
That was my story. Now, your date was September 10, 2017. Tell us what was going on that night.
(James verse: Eph 2:10)
I took me, literally, about 10 years just to be able to share that little bit I just told you. My family, including my wife, never knew what I planned to do just a little over 8 hours in the future…
Tell us about the “imposter syndrome” as it deals with suicidal thoughts in your book, “Finding Your Personal Mission.”
James Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/findyourpersonalmission
E-Book, “Finding Your Personal Mission” – on Amazon